Well this is an easy one. Access Summer Style 2009 Osaka. For gods sake its Access, they're made of magical.

My old as hell converse hightops with the neon green laces. ^___^

Men are all dumbfucks, don't waste your time or emotions on them. Except for Daichan and Hiro, a little fag love is perfectly healthy.

Well this is my first live update so its gonna suck hiro ballz, sorry guyz.

I have no idea what songs where played or what order, yes my memory is that bad. I met up with Lala and some new friends (Stephanie, Destiny, Cheshire Cat, and some others whose names I'm ashamed to say that I've forgotten ;_;) around 5pm. I had my pic taken with sexy Lala and some sexy AXS cosplayers. At around 6:30 we entered the hall and the concert didn't start til a little after 7. And then my mind melted into an orgasmic pile of mush. What I do remember: The two new songs are great. The ballad which we have renamed "Sweet Sweet Faggotry" made me cry like a newborn baby. Well, okay, I was crying through most of the concert cause I was so goddamn happy. Also the "Tears Liberation" remix was especially good. I had a pair of binoculars (good thing too as I was in the last row ;_;) and I got to see Daichan's wonderful smile(and also his lovely long fingers.... and supajap up close and personal). It made me feel so good inside just to watch and listen to them, and know that it was actually THEM that I was seeing, not just a video. The video they showed was of them eating kakigori and icecream. I have no idea what the fuck they were saying but it was supercute. I can't wait to see the superfag duo again next year. END SUKTASTIC UPDATE

I won a Halloween costume contest two years ago with my home made geisha costume. The prize... A speaker and sub woofer set. ^___^ It was AWESOME!

The Japanese tale of Kaguyahime, the bamboo/moon princess.

For everything to be just as perfect in a month as it is right now.

I BOUGHT THE TICKETS!!!!! OMG I'M SOOO EXCITED IT FEELS LIKE MY HEAD'S GOING TO EXPLODE!!! ^__________^ JAPAN HERE I COME!!!!

I use to have this dream all the time when I was a little kid and it would scare the shit out of me every time. It would be me and my little sister exploring some kind of ancient Mayan ruin or temple thing and then suddenly we would drop down into a pit that had a large pool/fountain thing at the bottom. We'd fall into the pool and be trying to swim to the edge to get out. But in the water there would be this large poisonous snake that was swimming after us and trying to bite my sister. I'd keep pulling her arm to try and get her out of the water so she would be safe, but every time I would fail and then wake up terrified. Then I would go over to her bed to make sure she was still there and safe. I blame the nightmare on watching the Indiana Jones movies too much, that and Legends of the Hidden Temple.

There once was a bird named Ryu,
on her mom's books she did love to chew,
her mom didn't get mad,
as she couldn't help but laugh,
and think " at least she doesn't cover them with poo".

I love my bird. ^___^

I see an Access concert in my future. I love Osaka already! I'M SO HAPPY! ^__^

Thought the DA community might like to see what I got for my B-day this year.

GIANT MEME
100 facts about me 8D
let's begin.....

1. last beverage → water
2. last phone call → Brandi
3. last instant message → Sister's facebook status update
4. last song you listened to → Mr. D
5. last time you cried → last night
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice → technically, I guess
7. been cheated on → yes
8. kissed someone & regretted it → definitely
9. lost someone special → definitely, several actually
10. been depressed → haven't we all?
11. been drunk and threw up → no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. green
13. blue
14. orange

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend → i suppose
16. Fallen out of love → not yet
17. Laughed until you cried? yup
18. Met someone who changed you → everyday
19. Found out who your true friends were → possibly but I think I've always kind of known
20. Found out someone was talking about you → no
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list → no

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → 1
23. How many kids do you want to have → 2-3, I plan to adopt at least one
24. Do you have any pets → My bird child, Ryu
25. Do you want to change your name → Yes
26. what time did you wake up today? 7:45 am
27. What were you doing at midnight last night → Watching Dexter with Jessica B.
28. Name something you CANNOT wait for → My summer abroad in Osaka
29. Last time you saw your father → 45 min. ago
30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → I wish I hadn't dumped him.
31. What are you listening to right now → Ryu attacking my hands while I'm trying to type
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Not that I can recall
33. What's getting on your nerves right now → watching them not do anything about their depression.
34. Most visited webpage → Livejournal... before that it was the DA Family Forums. I'm going crazy without my daily fix, lol.
35. Whats your real name → Sara
36. Nicknames → Saki/Sakiko
37. Relationship Status → Single and loving my ex who doesn't love me, and not particularly caring if he uses me because I just want him to be happy.
38. Zodiac sign → Aries
39. Male or female → Female
40. Elementary? → Nightmarish hell, lol j/k
41. Middle School → This for the most part really was a nightmarish hell, all except 7th grade English
42. High school → Some of the happiest years of my life
43. Hair colour → dark brown
44. Long or short → mid length
45. Are you a health freak? → no, but I do take multivitamins
46. Height → 5'2
47. Do you have a crush on someone → i guess
48: What do you like about yourself? → My motherly instincts towards those I care about
49. Piercings → Just the 2 in the ears, I use to have a second set but they need to be redone
50. Tattoos → only one planned
51. Righty or lefty → lefty
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery → wisdom teeth removal
53. First piercing → my ears when I was 16
54. First best friend → Devon
56. First sport you joined → soft ball
57. First pet → a cat named Crystal
58. First vacation → Smokey Mountains
59. First concert → Edwin McCain
60. First crush → I don't remember his name because it was in kindergarten, but he was your average nerd-glasses, plaid shirts, etc.
61. Eating → ?? french fries and a bite of a snickers bar, my mom started my addiction for junkfood at the very beginning
62. Drinking → ?? Sake, my mom bought me a bottle for my 18th birthday
52. I'm about to → Study some kanji!
63. Listening to → the hum of my minifridge
64. Waiting → I guess for short term waits, this weekend's yard sale.

YOUR FUTURE :
65. Want kids? 1 boy, 1 girl at least
66. Want to get married? If possible, if not, why worry?
67. Careers in mind? Cultural Adviser; Translator; Writer
WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO SOMEONE :
68. Lips or eyes → eyes
69. Hugs or kisses → hugs
70. Shorter or taller → taller
71. Older or Younger → around my age but it could go either way
72. Romantic or spontaneous → both
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → I honestly don't care, but I will say that I prefer a man with a little baby fat over a muscular man.
74. Sensitive or loud → sensitive
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → no
79. Drank hard liquor → yes
80. Lost glasses/contacts → yes
81. Ran away from home → does the back yard count?
84. Broken someone's heart → unfortunately yes
85. Been arrested → no
86. Turned someone down → yes
87. Cried when someone died → yes
88. Liked a girl/guy friend? yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → I try to
90. Miracles → yes
91. Love at first sight → yes
92. Heaven → no
93. Santa Claus → no
95. Kiss on the first date → no
96. Angels → no

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? no
99. Do you believe in God? no... but if you add a "s" to the end of that word I do.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? will do.

I got "downsized" out of one of my jobs today, and the other place moved me to an "on call" position a few weeks ago. So technically, I be jobless. BUT, in an effort to remain calm and positive, I applied for 6 jobs as soon as I got off from "my last day of work @ GNC". Life sucks so bad right now, but I have to tell myself it'll get better, even if that doesn't look to be the case.

So it's been quite a while since there was any activity on the the jhouserock site. I was sooo hoping that they would come back to Megacon this year but it would appear that the cards are against us. Suki has the hotel booked and I can't help but feel kinda bummed out and like I'm wasting $75 of my hard earned cash on some minor thrill, I mean the panels don't even look that great. The dealer room looks like its gonna suck too. Bleh. But whats done is done I guess. School is moving along without to many kinks, but both of my jobs suck balls right now. I'm lucky if I get more than 12 hrs a week, which is absolute bullshit. I'm thinking about trying to find a 3rd one, or maybe one thats better than the 2 I currently have. The ex is driving me insane, but I just keep on trying to move forward, maybe all this love and anguish will eventually become spite and hate and then I'll be able to make some progress, lol, though as long as I keep hanging on to him and fulfilling his "physical" needs this hole will just keep getting more darker, deeper, and twisted. Every time I think about it I want to vomit. It's sad that its gotten to this point. My Japanese is improving slightly. The hiragana I've just about "mastered" and I'm coming right along with the katakana now. The next step is kanji, and boy oh boy does it frighten the living daylights outta me. The charts have really helped and last week I picked up a kanji dictionary, however it uses "Hebon-shiki" romanization instead of "Kunrei-shiki" and I don't think I'm too thrilled about that, because personally I find the Kunrei-shiki less confusing. I think I've just about decided to cancel the Jap101 classes I was having with a few of my friends, its a waste of my time as they don't study and often decide to hit the pipe right before class (they KNOW how much I hate that shit and that makes me even more mad about it). I love Suki to death and we've been friends for fuckin ever (literally over 13yrs), but she's becoming more of a fuckin pothead every day it seems and I HATE it. But I'd also hate to have to end our friendship over something SO FUCKING RETARDED! I don't know what to do about it. So random and out of nowhere- for Valentines day, since I don't have a valentine this year(its not like the shithead even sent a card last year, after over six yrs you'd think....grrr. Well, that was one of the many reasons I dumped him, end rant) I bought myself 1 ticket to see Edwin McCain on the 14th at Freebird Live, yeah I'm sick and enjoy inflicting pain/painful memories on myself. My room looks like shit and I had intended to clean it today, but it doesn't look as though thats going to happen considering I'm currently spending the night(okay so its morning now) at Brandi and Ray's house. Maybe on Tues. or possibly Thurs. As usual, Ryu senses that I've been in a pretty down and crappy mood lately, so she's been extra sweet this last week. I've only been bitten half as much as usual when I don't pay enough attention while rubbing her feathery little head. ^_^ God I love my baby bird so much, she always cheers me up with a nuzzle or two when I'm feelin like my life is headed for a toss into the dumpster. Good grief I think I've ranted enough for today.

Stole this from patipati.

1. Have your media player handy
2. Choose one (1) song from your music library whose title starts with the first letter (or number) of your screen name.
3. Repeat this process with each successive letter (or number) in your screen name until you run out of letters (or numbers).
4. Post up your results.

KARMA FOREST(L.A.MIX)(DA Solo)
AGAINST THE RULES 2002 ～AA trance～(access)
balearic GHOST(access)
U(Oreskaband)
KappaMikeyTheme(BEAT CRUSADERS)
I.V.(X Japan)
Queen of Argyle(Empty Hats)
Unforgiven(Metallica)
EDGE(access)
Eyes Bright(Iceman)
Naked Desire-LIVE ONES SYNC-ACROSS JAPAN TOURS '93(access)
8番目の罪(Iceman)
5th of Beethoven(Walter Murphy and the Big Apple Band)

I love this group so much! I wish I could find a cd of their music.

I'm 23 and without motivation. And it really pisses me off, because I have SO MUCH to be motivated about. I don't know what the hells wrong with me. Maybe it's because I'm lacking a certain familiar support, maybe I'm lazy, maybe I have no sense of drive. I just don't know. But I need to get over it. Life's to precious to waste moping about and being depressed and unmotivated.

Yesterday I found the CUTEST shoes at the goodwill, they are perfect for my current sewing endeavor. I'm trying to sew a Gothic Lolita maid dress for the upcoming EXPCon. Here's a pic, they're so KAWAI! ^___^

And here is the second pair. It was a good day for thriftshopping in size 9, lol. XD

These don't fit quite as well, but they're good enough!